Mistakes.

everybody makes mistakes. be it small or big ones. we can't avoid them. it's part and parcel of life and growing.

I've made a lot of mistakes this year. big ones. so big that they not only hurt me in the end, they've hurt the people around me. but through these mistakes, I think I've grown. I've realised all my wrongs, and I'm trying very hard to be a better person now.

if you're doing that now too, give yourself a pat on the back. remember, it's NEVER too late to change. but please be reminded that apologising to the people you've hurt along the way does not mean they'll forgive you, let alone forget.

unfortunately, it's so for my case. not all are willing to forgive me for what I've done, or forget about my misbehaviour. but I think besides doing my part of apologising, there's nothing else I can do if that person doesn't want to accept me back into his or her life again. I have to move on, be strong, and continue changing.

reading my old livejournal blog just irks and disgusts me. I can't believe I used to type all that, the thoughts, the mindset, even the way I type, just everything. it's no wonder I generated so many haters from everywhere. even I hate the ME who wrote and did all those stuffs.

I guess regrets are hard to avoid. the most important thing is that we not dwell on it, but instead, learn from our mistakes, move on, and mature from it.

I sure hope you've done it, or are in the process of doing so. :)